The Gift of Ben

 I cannot find the energy to write much today. Our Thanksgiving respite is ending, and we are getting ready for the onslaught another week will bring, as everyone returns to their day jobs. Anxiety rises as the weekend closes. But, there is a story I need to share. It is the story of us, the abridged […]

Ben “became.” Actually, he simply is, and always was, Real, in full living color and vibrance. If you have ever met him, you know what I am talking about.  He had a spirit beyond words. Honesty in innocence. Slate blue eyes, which allowed us to see Heaven, even if just for a moment. I would like […]

“Mountains are giant, restful, absorbent. You can heave your sprit into a mountain and the mountain will keep it, folded….mountains are home” – Annie Dillard Our first run together amongst the mountains, the towering backdrop, a majesty which spoke to us, This, is your truth of Thanksgiving: Ben, is all around you, the energy of […]

 I am always moved each season by the song “Home for the Holidays.” In the past, it has elicited a general sense of yearning, but superficial to the touch. A temporary graze of the hand, quickly eased.When you pine for the sunshine of a friendly gaze. This year, I am mired in its depths. Its […]

 I must show you the other side of broken,as I watch you dream, the wisps of your breath an innocence encircling my chest;can I share with you now, as you sleep?Your soul can keep the secret, until you need to know.But, not now, not tonight. For this moment alone, I will share with you what I […]

I don’t cry, or at least not much. I’ve shed more tears in the past 4 months than the better part of my entire life. Sunday ended with an unexpected few tears appearing, while we were out for dinner with friends. It had been a particularly rough few days involving an intense yearning for parts […]