The Gift of Ben

Since Ben’s passing, I’ve often heard “oh, the holidays will be hard.” Holidays? Which ones? Thanksgiving, Christmas, Valentine’s Day, his birthday, Easter? Or what about July 4th, when we played at the beach and watched fireworks together? Or Memorial Day, when he sat on his daddy’s lap watching the parade and was so enthralled by the […]

 To, my daughter K If all else fell away,and you simplyWere.The clouds turning to ice with our exhale,I would stay.And, sit. Embracing the silence,existing beside you.Look – the snow blowing in sheets off the mountain.Do you See? Shivering, I would lean toward you,listen, that’s my heart, and feel -the warmth pulsating,surrounding us. Protecting us.The sun blinds in its […]

 Can I fall into you, my son?Love becomesOnly a combination of letters, born from the lines and curvatures of our limited consciousnessChristening our lips for the unspeakable, the unknowableAs one bubbles, upon another, in singularity these words give life. I feelYour presence is like the universe, expandingenergy that blankets my everything, my history and future […]

Surviving grief, and living. The initial steps are simple, mindless, but the latter steps more arduous. The day after your trauma – get out of bed. Shower. Shave. Its that simple. I promise. Trust me. The three month anniversary. There is no recipe, this maze is complicated, winding, and individual. But, I can talk about what today […]

Its tough to write much these days. Not because we aren’t “okay” (in the sense of the word that most people think about), but more because writing takes a mental focus and freedom that is difficult to find in our lives right now, for we continue to be weighted down by extraneous factors that take […]