Dealing with grief

Time. It has passed so quickly, yet so slowly at the same time. It seems like just yesterday that I was kissing your dimples for our first Christmas together. Today, I turn 40 and we are all getting ready to go out to dinner to celebrate. I find myself just wanting to talk to you. […]

This Friday marks the third year anniversary of Ben’s death. This week is always hard. We spent the better part of today, July 4th, at the pool. Kyle jumped in the pool with the girls, they begged for me to come in too. “I just don’t feel like it,” I told them, trying not to […]

Happy Birthday my sweet baby boy. I love and miss you. The years pass, but this day does not get easier. Much love. I’ll hold you again one day….

When I started writing in the summer of 2014, I was focused solely on our tragedy. Hot car deaths. Losing a child traumatically, etc. But, time passes. And, as it passes, I’ve come to realize our journey is much more universal. We have all lost. We have all experienced our own iterations of trauma. The experience […]

“It feels like all these beautiful pieces of life are flying around me and I’m trying to catch ’em. When my granddaughter falls asleep on my lap, I try to catch the feeling of her breathing against me. And when I make my son laugh, I try to catch the sound of him laughing, how […]

We were driving home from dinner last night, just me and R. I found myself telling her “I love you.” She responded, “I love you too,” and the following discourse ensued:Me: “How do you love me?”R: “What do you mean?” Me: “How do you know you love me? What do you feel? When do you love […]

I struggle with what to say or what not to say during the holidays. Life goes on, but then again it doesn’t. So, it leaves me speechless. I don’t write anymore, which is why I’m writing this Thanksgiving night. It is the therapy I need but don’t have time for with a full-time job. We’ve […]

Today we participated in a press conference to announce the introduction of the HOT CARS Act of 2016, which requires new passenger vehicles to be equipped with technology to provide an alert that a child remains in a rear seated position. It wasn’t at all as I’d expected it to be. In the aftermath of […]

They say you can’t live in the past. But, what if the past is all you have left? What if the break between The Past and The Future was so abrupt, you can’t separate the two? What if the thing that keeps you going is the simple remembrance of it all? You just can’t keep the dreams from […]

Tomorrow Ben would turn three. I’ve realized for those who have lost loved ones…the pain never goes away. You don’t “work through it” or learn to “deal with it.” The pain doesn’t “lessen.” Time passes and that is all that changes. The passage of time means you learn to think about other things more often, […]