The Gift of Ben

“Safety should not be a partisan issue.” – Senator Blumenthal, ConnecticutLast week, the Senate Commerce, Science and Transportation Committee voted along party lines to defeat numerous provisions that would have increased transportation safety for American citizens and even rolled back current safety laws. The Comprehensive Transportation and Consumer Protection Act (S. 1732) will be sent […]

Warning! This post is a momentary departure from my normal blogging style. It will have no serious existential or literary purpose…but I just need to say… We are going with friends to see Darius Rucker at an outdoor venue tonight!!! I’m so excited : ).  Okay, so I may tear up when he sings “It Won’t […]

I like dreaming for much the same reason I love (cherish, crave) writing, they both have the potential to create new worlds, where there are no rules, up is down, the future is the past, histories and people merge, there is a bright, technicolored tapestry of possibilities. In dreams and writing, our minds can move past a physical […]

We went camping this weekend in Buena Vista,  CO with some good friends, who have kids the same age as our girls. It was a beautiful weekend of nothing but nature, hiking, campfires with S’mores and writing. I even got to unplug from electronics for almost an entire four days, imagine that!  So, we got […]

“Hate is not the opposite of love, the opposite of love is individuality.” – D.H. Lawrence On August 19, 2014, at approximately 10 p.m., you would have found me running in pants and a long-sleeve shirt, sweater flowing around my waist, right down the middle of an old country road in Ridgefield, Connecticut. It was […]

This will be a short blog. It is meant for July 7th, the one-year anniversary of my Ben’s passing. But, I probably won’t be able to type it tomorrow….so I’m posting it a day early.  I checked my blog email today and am so very overwhelmed with joy. You have no idea how much those amazing words […]

I realized last night over fireworks for July 4th that I am no good as a wife, mother or friend unless I can face who I am today and how I got here. I have utterly failed at that so far, for a variety of reasons. It is easy to talk about grief and healing but […]

[*Spoiler alert: This post may contain some spoilers from the movie Inside Out.]  July 4th carries with it so many wonderful memories. July 4, 2012…a few weeks before I got pregnant with Ben, the weekend that I realized I wanted to quit my job at a big law firm in NYC to spend more time with […]

Just a few thoughts on grief to follow up on my post from last night. So, how does the morning look after a night like that, one where you unexpectedly find yourself sobbing and unable to breathe? It was a restless sleep for sure, and I’m fairly certain I told Kyle that I just wanted to lie in […]

Tonight, we enjoyed a wonderful U.S. Women’s World Cup soccer game with the kids and friends, in a venue with many memories from the “Ben days.” But, all I could think about was June 30th of last year. Where I was, how happy we were, what Ben was doing, how much time I thought we […]